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Time to get serious!
1. I need to lose the last 30 pounds to get to my goal weight.
2. I need to grow as an Independent Close To My Heart Consultant.
3. I need to start writing - prolifically
You are cordially invited to join me as I share my successes and obstacles, my thoughts and feelings, and my love of card making, scrapbooking and other crafty things.
I welcome your opinions, advice and inspiration.
Come ON! Let's GO!!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Day One -
Not feeling motivated at all today to go the gym. Why should I go? My fitness trainer won't be there. How would anybody know if I worked out or not? I could so easily play hooky. Don't I deserve a day off? Take it easy, stay in bed and watch Lifetime movies all day? Yep, such is my thought process on the first day.
I shake the mood off and remember what my fitness trainer told me before he left, "Be a problem solver." He's right. I can't let the fact that my fitness trainer won't be at the gym and my whole schedule has now been disrupted get me down. So I get up and set out to make my fitness trainer proud of me this week by working harder than ever before.
Usually on a Thursday, I will go for a walk in the morning and do a water workout in the afternoon and then go to small group training. But today is all topsy turvy since there is no small group! What to do! What to do? Oh...I am getting that shaky feeling before I have a panic attack. I can hear my fitness trainers voice telling me to breathe and relax. I can do this, I tell myself.
I get my daughter to walk with me around Quail Lake for 1 mile in the early afternoon. Then we go shopping. Afterwards, I head to the gym. I met a few of the other fitness trainers who were very encouraging and understood how hard it is to have your fitness trainer in absentee.
I did good! I rode the exercise bike for 40 minutes doing intervals - starting at level 4 and changing it 2 levels every 5 minutes. Up to level 10 and then back down to level 2. I burned 251 calories that and rode the bike 7 miles! I think that is the best I have ever done.
Then I did water zumba. I tried water zumba once and lasted 10 minutes cuz I couldn't keep up. It was a lot easier this time. Amazing the difference a 75 pound weight loss makes. It was also kind of fun. A different way to move. I'm not very good but I can only get better. After water zumba I did my abs in the water.
One day down! Maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
You have got to be kidding me! I wasn't looking forward to going to Team Weight Loss class tonight because we had to be in Brookes Team Fitness class and Brooke is tough! Well, so is my fitness trainer but in a different way. My biggest fear in working with a different trainer is that I won't be able to keep up and that I will push too hard and injure myself. Other fitness trainers don't understand when I need to slow down...not like my fitness trainer does.
And today is a blue day...I feel like I am losing interest in Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness. So to get out of my blue funk. I take my fitness trainers dog for a walk. (I am dog sitting while they are gone.) We went for a 1.77 mile walk. It was really good. I remember when this dog was just a pup and would just ball up and cower on the floor and just sit there. Now he walks along beside me without a leash. Every now and then he runs ahead of me and looks back, cocking his head, like he is wondering why I am sooooo slow. His fitness trainer master is a runner.
Made it to the gym. I rode the bike for 40 minutes again and then did Team class with Brooke. Brooke had us do a Farmers Walk! We had to walk around upstairs holding twenty pound weights. Brooke had to lower mine to 16 pounds cuz 20 pounds hurt my wrists. Carpal tunnel. Then we had to walk around holding 8 pound dumbbells over our heads and then straight out in front of us. Know what fitness trainer? I need stronger back muscles and shoulder muscles. That was stinkin hard!!! After each time we walked around we came back to our starting location and did 3 sets of planks, push-ups and wall squats.
I did weigh in at 221.8 at 5 pm... that's a good thing!
It's the weekend already! Kim kept me busy today! Does mall walking count as exercise? I drove up to Denver today and back. It started snowing hard in Denver but by the time we got back to the Springs it was clear.
My nutrition was not to good today...mostly because I ate out, twice. : > ( I did make healthy choices.
I have made a promise to myself. With the holidays coming up there will be quite a few times when I will be out and about shopping. I know I will get hungry. So if I am with anybody and they want to eat out, I will only get a salad or grilled chicken and veggies.
Sorry fitness trainer... I will run extra laps.
Sunday! Happy Wedding Day fitness trainer.
Guess what? Your female dog is in heat!!!! Imagine that...you go away to get married and go on your honeymoon and your dog gets pregnant!
No not really. She is in heat and we are doing the best we can to keep the male dogs away. Unless you want puppies? Too bad you can't email, text, or Facebook while you are away...sure would be nice to know...
Kind of jealous today too. You are on a nice warm beach, fitness trainer, and it is 30 degrees today and snowing!!! No walking today. I am going to do an all over house cleaning, decluttering and organizing day starting with the kitchen and working my way around the upstairs.
Is it too early to put up the Christmas tree?
Saw Skyfall tonight, (the new James Bond movie), awesome, awesome movie!
Monday...new week begun. I decided to change it up a bit this week and go to the 10:00 team class. Brookes class is still scaring me. Lawerence (aka: Larry Boy) is substituting while my fitness trainer is away. He surely can't be as scary as Brooke right? And plus David has the day off...so it would be nice to be home this evening.
I rode the bike for 20 minutes when I got to the gym. Dani and Mike were there. It's good to have friends at the gym...keeps me motivated. I started my bike ride at level 20 and bumped it down one level every minute.
I did Team Weight Loss....OMG!!! Lawerence is a tough fitness trainer...and he doesn't take no for an answer. We had to walk sideways and backwards on the treadmill, walk at 15% inclines holding weights, squats, marching steps, etc. Totally different work out!!!! I almost lost it. Walking sideways and backwards makes my brain feel funny. But I tried to do my best....
Really, really missing my fitness trainer today!!!
Did my water workout afterwards. Lawerence said to make sure I drink a protein smoothie before I did my water workout. Is that true, that working out too much will eat away lean muscle???
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
The Bible talks a lot about running races - endurance and persistence - One might think, if God even wrote about running the race...maybe we were born to run?
2 Timothy 4:17 - I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. (NKJV)
Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we'd better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he's there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls! Hebrews 12:1
After reading this book it was easy to see how life can be like an ultramarathon. Right now - losing this weight and getting fit is my ultramarathon. It is taking a lot of endurance and persistence and faith...but slowly and steadily, keeping my eyes on the goal it's working!
Yesterday, I ran around the basketball court. I ran! That is huge. I never run! I think sometimes I might be allergic to running. It makes my lungs burn and my legs hurt. The only difference between other days and yesterday was I so badly wanted to keep going. By the time, I got back around the bball court to where my fitness trainer was standing, I wanted to keep going...but I didn't know if I could...so I stopped.
But I felt INVIGORATED!!!
Alex said I did a good job and deep down inside I was thinking... Yeah! It really was a good job and I really liked it and maybe I haven't been giving my all to my workouts...so get ready cuz I'm going all out now! I'm going to do this! And by December I will be under 200 pounds!!!!
I think...no, I know now...I have reached a turning point. That adrenaline has now been shot into every aspect of my life. I no longer want to be a human being...I want to be a human doing. I don't know what is in store for my future. Will I get a teaching job? Will I ever run a marathon or at least a 5K? I don't know! But I know, I no longer want to sit on the sidelines.
So onward to new challenges - just like life
Onward to sometimes feeling like giving up, and sometimes wanting to quit and sometimes wondering whats it all about - just like life
Onward to feeling tired and exhausted and full of pain - just like life
Onward to achieving success and victory - Just Like Life
Friday, June 15, 2012
I read an article recently which prompted me to do some more research and I found out that it is, in fact, indeed true that most people perceive a hill to be steeper than it really is...whether you are looking up the incline or down. In one article, Perceiving Geographical Slant, the authors stated that "slant overestimation becomes increasingly exaggerated with fatigue". Test participants, during various research experiments, were asked to estimate the slope of a hill after a period of intense exercise. The participants consistently misjudged the slope, thinking a 5 degree slope was almost 20 degrees. The more tired, scared, frail or burdened a person is makes climbing the hill seem even more daunting.
Manitou Springs, Colorado has an Incline that the public uses for exercise. Once a one mile cable tram used to support the construction of a hydroeletric plant and a waterline, then turned into a tourist attraction was finally dismantled and what remained were the tracks that formed a crude, rugged stairway that ascends for 2000 feet. First timers to the Incline are often heard to groan and mumble, "You want me to climb that"?
I climbed this Incline recently. About 2/3 of the way to the top is a Bailout Pass and I actually made it! But boy was that the hardest climb I have ever done and made me a firm believer in the above research. I shed tears. I wanted to give up. I needed a lot of encouragement and motivation to make it up this incline. I remember looking up and thinking that the way kept getting steeper and steeper. If it wasn't for my cheering section, which included my fitness trainer, Alex Beeding, his fiancee, Jackie and a friend from the gym, waiting for me at the Pass and a husband behind me pushing me onward, I don't think I would've made it.
Life can be a hard climb sometimes. Sometimes we get burned out and exhausted and even a trivial problem can seem to big for us to handle. It is so much easier to just sit at the base of a difficult hill and stay there, convinced that the grade is too steep...but then we never achieve success. Life's difficulties are so easy to misjudge. We need courage to keep going when we are tempted to quit.
This weight loss journey I am on is a steep hill to climb. I can feel myself getting burned out from eating one more dinner of chicken and veggies. I can feel the soreness in my legs and the exhaustion from one more trip to the gym. I am tired. I feel frail. But I can't sit at the base of Weight Loss Mountain or I will never achieve the victory. So I draw strength and encouragment from those around me, from my fitness trainer, my family, my friends who all say, "Come on Debbie, you can do better. You're next goal is just around the corner. You may not see it, the way looks steep, but we're here in front of you and behind you. You can do it. You can conquer this difficult hill."
And I look up...and it does look steep. Very steep. Insurmountably steep...but then I catch a glimpse of the vision of being healthy again. I look at where I have been and where I am going and I say to myself....Onward then!!!
Isaiah 40:29 - He gives power to the weak and to those who have no might He increases strength.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Don't know if it was all the stress, lack of sleep, allergy factors, or what, but I wound up in the ER. Apparently, I had low sodium. Hmmmmmm...guess I will find out more when I get in to see my Primary Care Physician. All I know is I have an extremely twitchy eye that started the day we left for the trip and has not stopped.
Low sodium? Theres a topic for a good devotional. Reminds me how God tells us we are/should be salty Christians. "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt has lost its savor, how will it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled on by the feet of men." Matthew 5:13
Amazing how God brings spiritual truths home to us...just one of His many graces.
Day 29 - A song heard, a soft word, where you saw the light
85 - The song "I'm free from the fear of tomorrow. I'm free from the guilt of the past. I've traded my shackles for a glorious song. I'm free. Praise the Lord, free at last." Makes me think of Mark
86 - Davids mom gently admonishing me, when I was complaining at my Mom's that there was nothing to eat and hearing her say, "Sounds like she just gave you a lot of choices" Ouch...grateful that God does supply our daily bread.
87 - The full moon that looked blood orange...beautiful
Day 30 - 3 old things seen new
88 - seeing an old Lifetime Fitness Center for the first time and grateful that even though I have a single-club membership they let me in anyway so I could do my workout
89 - seeing the old Surburban sitting in the driveway...that car may be old...but we got it for a good price and it is carried us many miles.
90 - seeing my mom and mother-in-law, they are old, but they are strong women and my inspiration.
Day 31 - a gift found on paper, in a person, in a picture
91 - Found an entry in one of Marks notebooks that talked about his struggles in beleiving in God and ended with him asking...how could he not beleive? Grateful for God grace of a blessed hope.
92 - Sabrina - she really did care for my brother-in-law...she is a precious gift...and has a beautiful smile.
93 - looking at Marks pictures that he drew and painted...what a gift...what a priceless treasure.
I will catch up on Februarys Joy Dares...later this week
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
It's hard to lose a loved one...what is about death that gets us so depressed and despondent? Is it the fact that we begin to reflect on the brevity of life, or how I spent my years? How will someone remember me? I can let the news of someone dying bring me down...it has tried to this week...the sadness and grief sometimes feels so overwhelming... or I can be grateful...Grateful that I had a chance to know this person, thankful for their influence in my life that helped to make me who I am today. A person passing leaves a big empty space in our hearts, which will remain void, until we too pass beyond the gates of earthly life into our spiritual life... I will miss my brother-in-law...his wit, his humour, his artistic renderings and writings, and his statuses on Facebook explaining to everyone how he made KartoffelSuppen...you could practically smell the aroma of it slowly simmering in the slow cooker. And until then Mark, I will remain grateful... and I will keep looking for those daily graces...cuz that's what its all about...
Day 22: one grace wrinkled, one grace smoothed, one grace unfolded
64: I look at David and notice the wrinkles around his eyes, his hair that is turning gray and I realize how much I love this man who has made my life complete.
65: I love the feel of clean sheets...the smoothness and the crispiness of getting between the top sheet and the fitted sheet right before bed...makes me thankful
66: I fluff out and unfold the blanket, straight from the dryer, the smell of Downy wafts upon the air as it settles over the bed... drawing me into a warm, restful, peaceful slumber...for this I am grateful.
Day 23: 3 Gifts Found in Christ
67: Salvation - John 3:16 - which gives us
68: that Blessed Hope of
69: Eternal Life
Day 24: 3 things blue
71: the blue sky which means a warm day
72: my new Ellie Blue Vera Bradley duffel bag
Day 25: one grace borrowed, one grace found, one grace inherited
73: Cricut cartridges that my dear friend has let me borrow and Cricut cartridges that I have let my friend borrow...it is good to have a friend like that
74: happened a long time ago...but I still remember it clearly...the time when I lost my keys and my dear friend helped me tear the house apart trying to find them...we finally prayed about it and the next day, I found them, in the closet, in the hood of my daughters coat...How did they get there?
75: my love for music, passed on to me by dear, precious Dad...
Day 26: a gift before 9 am, a gift before noon, a gift after dark
76: the sunrise
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Day 15 - one thing you wore, one thing you gave away, one thing you shared.
43. I wore a pair of underwear this week that went south...first day of sub teaching at a middle school, right in the middle of class, whoop! There they go! Made me grateful though... cuz I AM LOSING THIS WEIGHT!
44. I gave away some stuff for the thrift store. Thank you God for the ability to let stuff and junk go.
45. I shared a Cutie Orange with one of my students. I had already had one and had one left and I gave it to one of the students who doesn't get much time to eat lunch.
Day 16 - 3 ways you witnessed happiness today.
46. Seeing the scales go down another 2.8 pounds
47. Watching my dogs chase each other around as if they haven't a care in the world.
48. Watching the mom at the store interacting with her child...they were so wrapped up in each others love.
Day 17 - one gift that made you laugh, one gift that made you pray, one gift that made you quiet.
49. Jelly, Kims chihuahua, made me laugh, she went to jump on Kim's leg and totally missed and kept going.
50. When two of the students in the class I was teaching got into a fight. I prayed hard. These students are a gift...show them Dear Lord...your paths...the path of truth and peace...keep them safe.
51. Giving my all during a workout...
Day 18 - 3 Gifts from Gods Word
52. I will both lay me down in peace and sleep...for Thou Lord, only, makes me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8
53. I will never leave you nor forsake you...
54. Stop with those shouldas, woulda's and coulda's...you know where they come from and the devil will not win...He will not get the victory! Thanks Laurie for that reminder
Day 19 - A grace in the kitchen, a grace in the weather, a grace that might never have been.
55. My daughter cooking a great dinner of Pork Loin, with apples and onions, long grain wild rice and pan fried green beans.
56. The weather warmed up so nice this weekend...it gave the promise of spring.
57. If David had never gone to Germany, I never would have become good friends with Dani, I never would of heard about Lifetime Fitness, I never would have gotten the best fitness trainer ever....Alex Beeding
Day 20 - 3 gifts you saw only when you got close up
58. Dog noses
59. The price of a supplement I have been wanting to get...doesn't cost so much as I thought
60. My students were doing their work!
Day 21 - one thing in the sky, one thing from your memory, one thing thats ugly-beautiful
61. The three Air Force planes, I saw flying in the sky in formation, fascinating!
62. my dad... I miss him...oh, how I miss him
63. Me..."If there ever were dreams that were broken and shattered...those were my dreams at the start, and the hopes for lifes best, were the hopes that I harbored down deep in my heart...but my dreams turned to ashes, my castles all crumbled, my fortune fell to dust...so I wrapped it all in the rags of my life and I laid it at the cross... and now.... AND NOW....there's something beautiful...."
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Day Eight - light that caught you, a reflection that surprised you, a shadow that fell lovely
22.. The light of Gods love that caught me at 8 years olds when I first believed and at 14 when I surrendered my life to Him...
23. My reflection in the sliding glass door, which made the dog bark. Wow! Thats me?!
24. The shadow of the mountains at the end of the day
Day Nine - A gift in your hand, a gift that you walked by, a gift that you sat with
25. Holding a heart shaped Reeses Peanut Butter Cup in my hand and realizing that I don't need it, giving it to my husband and telling him that he could have my heart...
26. Walking by Otho's Cookies in the mall, which has the best cookies anywhere, and having the willpower to not stop.
27. Sitting with my friend, Laurie, at the gym the other night so I would not have to walk around the mall for 2 hours waiting for my daughter to get off work
Day Ten - a gift that's sour, a gift that's sweet, a gift that's Just Right
28. Lemons, they are sour, but they sure make my water taste good
29. Cupcakes, cant eat 'em but I like how they look
30. My children, a gift from God that is Just Right
Day Eleven - 3 yellow things that strike you as fresh mercy
31 - bananas
32 - sunshine
33 - rubber duckies
Day Twelve - something above you, something below you, something beside you
34 - angels watching over me
35 - my craft room in the basement of the house
36 - the love of my life, my hubby
Day Thirteen - 3 sounds you hear
37 - the fan blowing
38 - the dog burrowing under his blankets
39 - any minute now the sound of Dave snoring
Day Fourteen - 3 ways you glimpsed the startling grace of God
40 - the many friends and family who have reposted the news about Davids missing brother Mark
41 - The Broncos losing their game tonight because now I have to give up the habit of eating out, which will hopefully not only make me healthier but wealthier too
42 - through the eyes of a child
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Day One: 3 things about yourself you are grateful for
1. my health
2. the energy I have to get done the things I need to do - like workout
3. I'm Me!
Day Two: A gift outside, inside, on a plate
4. Outside, we have a VW Passat, Jeep Liberty, Ford Edge and a GMC Envoy and a Suburban in the driveway and they all run...which reminds me I have a great husband who knows how to keep them that way
5. Inside, there are nine dogs curled up on the couch...they may be annoying and noisy at times, but they all love me unconditionally
6. On a plate, I have a no-carb dinner, grilled chicken, steamed veggies and a salad, which will help me become healthier
Day Three: 3 lines you overheard that were graces
7. Alex Beeding - "you shouldn't even want that!"
8. Friend at the gym - "we were talking about you the other day...about how funny you are"
9. Ben - "I love you, Mom."
Day Four: One gift old, new and blue.
10. Old - the music box of the girl playing the piano that my Dad gave to me on my 16th birthday...to me it's priceless.
11. My sign from Kim this year at Christmas that says...Keep Calm and Have a Cupcake
12. My snuggly, warm Smurf blankie that my friend Bobbie Sue made me for my birthday...
Day Five: Something you're reading, you're making, you're seeing
13. The Carb Lovers Diet Book...there is hope that life does not have to be carbless
14. the afghan I am crocheting for my friends wedding...
15. My little Chihuahua boy lying at the foot of the bed, sound asleep...
Day Six: One thing in your bag, your fridge, your heart.
16. Apple Pie Dessert gum in my bag
17. Bags of salad mixes, baby spinach, hearts of romaine, broccoli and cauliflower in my fridge
18. I really want to do these ten challenges... and lose this weight in my heart.
Day Seven: 3 graces from people you love (or like a lot or just have a heapin dose of respect for).
19: all the prayers from many of my friends who are praying for Mark and that he will come home soon
20: that Alex Beeding may actually care... when he writes in my journal - "No eating out!!!!"
21: the hug I got from my husband tonight...wrapped in his arms...what could be better?