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Time to get serious!

1. I need to lose the last 30 pounds to get to my goal weight.

2. I need to grow as an Independent Close To My Heart Consultant.

3. I need to start writing - prolifically

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Sunday, September 25, 2011

Confessions and Wonder Fall

    I confess! I went to Olive Garden and ate Pumpkin Cheesecake and I liked it!
(The Pumpkin is the veggie, cheese is the protein and cake is the carb... How balanced can a diet get? The nutritionist didn't quite agree with that. Wonder why?)

Kim videotaped me the other day eating pumpkin cheesecake at Olive Garden and then she emailed it to a friend of mine who goes to the same gym as I do. I'm sure my weight loss coach will see it when she heads back to the gym to this week. Way to hold me accountable!  I am so dead! Last time the whole team had to do holding squats because I had twinkie pie. (I can't help it if I have sweet tooth and it did have fruit!)  I am in a rebellious streak.

 Go ahead take those videos, take those pictures of me feeling bad. "For the first time in my life I feel wicked" (Elphaba - from the musical Wicked) Is that a bad thing? I have made healthy eating choices this week... a few bad ones? Yeppers! And it was so good! I have such a major sweet tooth. And honestly I do feel stressed... and this week I just got really, really, really lonely for David. I am psyching myself up to the fact that he might be gone for another year. I want him home so bad but him being unemployed scares the bejesus out of me.

I eat my emotions... and man! do they taste good! Pumpkin cheesecakes and midnight truffle blizzards from Dairy Queen. YES! Bring on the happy...

My healthy eating choice this week: I really really like black bean tostadas with shredded lettuce, tomatoes and cheese! I think I could eat them everyday. My goal is too have a vegetarian lunch everyday...well at least most days.

Exercise...although it is hard to admit is kind of starting to feel better. This week my heart rate has not shot up to 166 on the treadmill and I haven't felt like a fish out of water gasping for air... I haven't had to use my emergency inhaler very often either. But shhhhhhh! I can't admit that its helping - not yet. I am still too skeptical. I doubt myself... Where is my confidence?!!!

On to the start of the sixth week of fitness class. Halfway point. I think we have an endurance test this week. I have made it halfway! Wow! I wonder if I can do my holding squats while leaning against a wall... HA!

Walking down memory lane and started to feel blue... not because it's fall. I love Fall and the wonder of Fall.  The weather starts cooling off, the leaves start turning into the rich colors of olive green, dark reds, browns, oranges, burnt umbers, etc. All my favorite colors. When Fall comes there is an excitement in the air... another year is coming to an end, Christmas is just around the corner and the season of giving thanks begins. (It's also the season that my birthday falls in). No...I'm feeling blue, cuz this time last year hubby and I took a Fall trip.

We had no destination in mind we just took off driving, stopping where we wanted, taking pictures of the fall colors. Our trip led us to Breckenridge where we stayed at a cozy bed and breakfast. The owners had two standard poodles as the mascots of the Inn. Loved it. It was so peaceful. Jacuzzi tub in the room. Huge King size bed. I was just getting over a bout of pneumonia so walking around Breckenridge was not too easy but I did it. Our trip also led us to Estes Park, where for the first time we got to see the Inn where The Shining was filmed... (not the one with Jack Nicholson the modern one). We took the ghost tour but we didn't see any ghosties. Might be fun to spend the night there someday. We went during the Elk Fest and actually saw an Elk get loose and run down the road right next to our car.  We had so much fun on this trip - totally spontaneous, relaxing and enjoying each others company.  This year he's working overseas again.... and I am really missing him being home. You'd think 21 years as a military wife would desensitize me to his being gone... Nope... Absence does not make the heart grow fonder.

Stress this week also came from busy traffic and stupid drivers... Bills needing to be paid. Chores needing to be done... and I found myself actually looking forward to going to my TEAM Weight Loss Class. Mostly, because I am beginning to realize how much of a stress releiver it is to do a workout.

Ahhhh... life is good!

Be blessed